2States!

Episode - Emotions in Life!!!

Emotions tickling, at the same time warning!

Feelings undulating, yet going numb!

Words spurring,but ceasing before they are out!

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What Not!

 

My Life always has two sets for me:One sets me High and another Low.

Between these two states , I lay unable to contradict,unable to be submissive.

 

"Life Exciting, at the same time Challenging".

 

My Shadow Page!

Technically speaking,a "shadow page" is a temporary storage space in a particular software system.The Other day,when I m surfing  through my daylight dreams,it suddenly flashed to me that, each one of us have shadow page in our own dream system.The technicality of this is-the content of this will be changing as fast as RAM.The content is nothing but the people upon whom we will have CRUSH.

                So When do these pages get in to the permanent storage area of our system-the heart?

               When all your dreams are no longer stupid,

               When all your desires have someone to target,

               When all your dangling threads combine to form a bond with that someone...On that day,you will know the final image which is going to take the permanent storage in your heart.

P.S:Hope everyone find theirs as quick as possible:-)

Still Water.........

Whatever decisions I took considering everyone around me,are hurting me over and over again.I still don't know what I want.

What I want either eludes me or I have to undergo mental trauma with those I have.I couldn't decide on certain things.May be God is planning a special road for me.I want happiness.I don't want to be broken.I want to be flexible enough to accept whatever comes my way.I want myself to be, like "Still water".

Can you digest?

Maturity is the understanding you get out of your perception of people and situations around you.Its fine to have it well rounded, even as per the international standards.What if it  outgrows itself?What if the baby plant gets ready to criticize on the mother plant itself?Can you digest it?I am unable to do so.Suggest me if you can...

A Way Back!

Here I am,after exposing myself to turmoil,thinking,solitude,irritating situations,confused ideals,conflicting ideas,seclusion,loneliness  and 

a lot of thinking,thinking,thinking which practically lead to nowhere but psychologically given me a million directions to lead my LIFE.

Practically all the issues that approached me tested me in myriad possible ways.

Whether I can manage them or not is left to my patience,my attitude and ME.

 People,who were on their own ways hit me with their lives.Is it possible,you may think?But It is,surely if they are very important in your life.Another pitiful experience is being taught by all the persons on the way.As if I don't know HOW TO DEAL?

Why do you think so much???

This is the constant question I am bombarded with each and every time an issue arises.A Simple smile can skip the answering,but the inner me struggled through out and I found the answer.

It is ME.I am the answer for all this pestering.I have to deal with it.The processor in me should be interrupted when it gives unnecessary outputs.The way I speak,I give out the words to the person listening to it is the ultimate thing I have to monitor.Extra Care is required because yesterday I went on without this realization on to the brink of losing my closest friend.God, I am soaked in to an eternal silence marking the regret and the immediate need to evolve.I wanted to cry out loudly to prove that I haven't done that on purpose,to prove that I am not that narrow minded.It is this best friend of mine...so before I broke out,everything came back to normal.Here I want to really appreciate that friend for being super fast in dealing with the situation,for getting me.But this will not be the case with mottled people out there in this huge world.So there is the need for my search and it yielded.

Another thing I want to show out is I am not wrong all through this.My ideals are not at all wrong.What I stood for marks "me" and I don't want to change that.I am not wrong in my thinking.My handling is wrong.Let me work on it.But before that Now,I am here finally settled down with ME.

Started out on my journey,with my ideals and ME.

Cool,Complacent and Clever.

Harika.