The Much Awaited Confession!

This goes as a address to no one.

Just because you don't find me express myself anywhere does not mean that I am in dearth of feelings.

Our mind is more or less like a perpetual river- it flows in full during rains, it dries up during summer, it may get frozen up during winter, it may reflect the beautiful hues during spring. But it do exist. Yes , it does.

For the each and every second of my life which has gone waste in searching for the right one, here I am, begging your pardon, please get me back my time. Present me with the same altruist passion for myself.

Sincerely

Eternal Free Spirit

In search of Myself

So, What should be my goodnight note!!!!?

Of late, I am just wondering, where am I going to land myself in Life?

There is this sea of thoughts waiting to surge upon me as soon as I restore myself to the calmest hours of the day- me and my mind and the alluring sleep.

So my landscape varies from me -being the most outstanding student in the class, secretly struggling in Maths, but manages to be in the cream of the class.

-from me being the calm and the reserved girl who has only few real friends(being learnt the biggest lesson on friendship in her younger days).

-from me being the survivor of the drastic and worst phase of my life(Intermediate).

-from me being the......

I think this is not going to be the summary of my life as of now, let me write it sometime later, when it is going to end :P

So, I am just concerned about whether I have to wish myself that the best days are yet to come or to be strong while amidst the storm, because I m not sure if this phase of my life ends.

It's just me,

Harika.

Thoughts..Ending or Beginning!!!???

2015...So this is how it ended.
The year which I thought will be the biggest challenge and the to toughest to live by - just passed away!

With broken dreams and a struggle to overcome, with friends who wanted me to get back and the hope - which evaded me so far.

So, I found my biggest hope in the words of someone who just wanted  to see me being myself and win over life  -not by the mere astrological predictions but by walking against the stars.

So, this wanna be writer,a blogger,avid reader,creative art pursuer and a passionate searcher for the inner meaning of life - here I am , with lots of hope, not on the people I have met,not on the people who belong to the past, not on the people who walked away slowly, not on the people who stayed and supported and not on the people who are still there - its only on , one and  only "ME" . I am not going to let you down dear! All set to face the world again.

So that moment when the world started celebrating the dawn of the new year at 12'o clock, all I m left with is just a blank mind - which does not want to wish anyone,which cannot think of at least one person who meant everything other than my parents,which just wanted to see the night sky endlessly in search of the iridescent cloud of stars and galaxies which holds my life in its entirety and eternity, just with my naked eyes as if they are the tools to find the meaning of life! "That Moment" I felt I m complete!

Yours Eternal Free Spirit
Harika

Flipped!!!

As I let my self through each and every day, I have this consciousness which always runs through like a perennial river, on each and every thing that matters and also some of the trivial things - an intuition or an instinct. This is exactly what I identified myself with when I watched this movie- called Flipped.

The excellent portrayal and narration of incidents in both the angles of the lead characters, showing the audience both the perceptions simultaneously and as usual the way the motions the explained are the few things I can think of.

But By and Large, the way the movie tried to show the evolution of the two children over the years, the formation of a thought process and nurturing that instincts they really feel are very catchy.

I am very thrilled at the way If a girl stands strong on what she believes and the boy who is basically coward gets clarified of his thoughts and emotions and takes a step forward to express the same, Flipped as it in the end!

P.S: Life is not full with all the bits and pieces we accumulate, its about the entire landscape which makes it complete :)

Feeling Thoughtful and pleasant,

Harika.

The Theory Of Everything

Every time I lose hope on Love and Existence of Life on Earth together,
the universe conspires me to see some Live Examples for Such.
'The Theory Of Everything'...the movie based on the book "Journey To Infinity:My Life with Stephen" by Jane Hawking.
Really such an awesome experience through time and life of great people living on the same planet.
"Love can do wonders" the standalone conclusion I got.

P,S:(Inspiring lines from the same)
"There should be no boundaries to human endeavor. We are all different. However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at. While there's life, there is hope. "

New Dimensions!

Dear All,
 
As we discover new dimensions to the universe we live in, an individual is always stumbled upon the
urgent requirement of discovering the new dimensions he has to have, in leading this enormously  complex yet, seemingly so simple Marathon called Life.
In my endless endeavor to improvise myself, in leading life more productively,
I hear, I seek ,I am always in search of Wisdom in various forms.

In one search seek, got these:
It makes you complete
Only If you can with held the sorrow that has build up inside without dropping a tear,
Only If you can hold back the enormous happiness ,
Only If you can laugh it off the intense pain without showing it in your eyes

Seems so easy but so intense to practice.

P.S: Hope I would make it.

Always Honest,
Harika.

Start all over Again!

Since the days I started to think and write my mind, I always use to reiterate a line to myself.That....It's never too late to start over again...

To start up new even though you are deviated a lot...

Found some similar but great verse in one of the movies I recently saw.

For what it's worth, its never too late.

To be whoever you want to be.

There is no time limit,start whenever you want.

You can change or stay the same.There are no rules for this thing.

We can make the best or worst of it. Hope you make the best of it.

Hope you see things that startle you.

Hope you feel things that you never felt before.

Hope you meet people with a different point of view.

Hope you live a life you are proud of.

If you find, you are not...

Hope you have the courage to start all over again.

P.S: Sharing the same lines from the movie.#encouraging.

My Hibernate Hangout!

I find people say they are back to blogging and they hope to continue this time and all that stuff.
I really don't see a need to say so.

Blogging may be your hobby. It may be your past time. It need not be a report to someone.
I am someone who fall in to this category who has been struggling with my own life and almost forgot that I have a blog.

I used to love blogging. My favorite past time and an evidence to my lovely pursuit of Writing.

I always wanted to write a lot. I wanted to express everything in words. From the irritated feeling you get when you are commuting in a busy thoroughfare to the divine feeling you get when you find love.

And I wanted to be Special, without getting lost in the runway of Life.

P.S: So, this is to all girls who  felt like me.Don't ever get lost.Find yourself and regain your radiance.

Absolutely Mine,
Harika.

Creative Clarity!

It was many days since I made a post.My favorite past time was long forgotten and left over.The only reason which held me back is the lack of clarity, as I am mired in a pool of ideas,thoughts and emotions.

Being an emotional person inherently,I always strive for betterment-to win over myself,my inabilities,my feelings. In that process I go too personal-not able to share anything with anyone on this earth.But my mom is the only exception.She is there with me at all thresholds of my life.She always tries to be a better mould for me.She is my everything.

"With Great Confusion comes Great Clarity."

In my Life's whirlwind of challenges & the need to evolve,knocking at my doorstep....
It's Me signing off,back to my endless endeavor for betterment.

2States!

Episode - Emotions in Life!!!

Emotions tickling, at the same time warning!

Feelings undulating, yet going numb!

Words spurring,but ceasing before they are out!

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What Not!

 

My Life always has two sets for me:One sets me High and another Low.

Between these two states , I lay unable to contradict,unable to be submissive.

 

"Life Exciting, at the same time Challenging".

 

My Shadow Page!

Technically speaking,a "shadow page" is a temporary storage space in a particular software system.The Other day,when I m surfing  through my daylight dreams,it suddenly flashed to me that, each one of us have shadow page in our own dream system.The technicality of this is-the content of this will be changing as fast as RAM.The content is nothing but the people upon whom we will have CRUSH.

                So When do these pages get in to the permanent storage area of our system-the heart?

               When all your dreams are no longer stupid,

               When all your desires have someone to target,

               When all your dangling threads combine to form a bond with that someone...On that day,you will know the final image which is going to take the permanent storage in your heart.

P.S:Hope everyone find theirs as quick as possible:-)

Still Water.........

Whatever decisions I took considering everyone around me,are hurting me over and over again.I still don't know what I want.

What I want either eludes me or I have to undergo mental trauma with those I have.I couldn't decide on certain things.May be God is planning a special road for me.I want happiness.I don't want to be broken.I want to be flexible enough to accept whatever comes my way.I want myself to be, like "Still water".

Can you digest?

Maturity is the understanding you get out of your perception of people and situations around you.Its fine to have it well rounded, even as per the international standards.What if it  outgrows itself?What if the baby plant gets ready to criticize on the mother plant itself?Can you digest it?I am unable to do so.Suggest me if you can...

A Way Back!

Here I am,after exposing myself to turmoil,thinking,solitude,irritating situations,confused ideals,conflicting ideas,seclusion,loneliness  and 

a lot of thinking,thinking,thinking which practically lead to nowhere but psychologically given me a million directions to lead my LIFE.

Practically all the issues that approached me tested me in myriad possible ways.

Whether I can manage them or not is left to my patience,my attitude and ME.

 People,who were on their own ways hit me with their lives.Is it possible,you may think?But It is,surely if they are very important in your life.Another pitiful experience is being taught by all the persons on the way.As if I don't know HOW TO DEAL?

Why do you think so much???

This is the constant question I am bombarded with each and every time an issue arises.A Simple smile can skip the answering,but the inner me struggled through out and I found the answer.

It is ME.I am the answer for all this pestering.I have to deal with it.The processor in me should be interrupted when it gives unnecessary outputs.The way I speak,I give out the words to the person listening to it is the ultimate thing I have to monitor.Extra Care is required because yesterday I went on without this realization on to the brink of losing my closest friend.God, I am soaked in to an eternal silence marking the regret and the immediate need to evolve.I wanted to cry out loudly to prove that I haven't done that on purpose,to prove that I am not that narrow minded.It is this best friend of mine...so before I broke out,everything came back to normal.Here I want to really appreciate that friend for being super fast in dealing with the situation,for getting me.But this will not be the case with mottled people out there in this huge world.So there is the need for my search and it yielded.

Another thing I want to show out is I am not wrong all through this.My ideals are not at all wrong.What I stood for marks "me" and I don't want to change that.I am not wrong in my thinking.My handling is wrong.Let me work on it.But before that Now,I am here finally settled down with ME.

Started out on my journey,with my ideals and ME.

Cool,Complacent and Clever.

Harika.

 

 

Request to GOD

Dear God,

Please give me one reason to celebrate this new year.

A reason to smile again.

A reason to be me.

A reason to get on in  life.

                

Waiting for your reply.........

yours Sadly,

Harika:-(                                       

                                    

Life's Dilemmas'

Each and every person in this world, at one time or the other feels this pain.The pain in handling life as we like.The pain in accepting the unknown.The pain in anticipation.The pain in taking decision at the right hour.The pain in facing the uncertain things ahead.

Life long Friends...

"Thomas Alva Edison" and "the bulb"

Anyone can identify the relation between these words...

But have you ever heard Edison and Ford???

Yeah...

When the formal pair relates to an invention,the latter pair relates themselves as Friends!!!

Edison met Ford at a dinner where Edison was greatly impressed by Ford's car designs. His support went a long way to reach Ford's historic success in auto industry. Ford and Edison remained inseparable friends for sometime. After Ford became a wealthy industrialist, he encouraged Edison to conduct many experiments. They had their vacations and camping together. As they grew together, Ford moved in to an estate next to Edison's.Their estates were separated by a wooden fence but the gate always stood open...and became known as "The Friendship Gate". When Edison became confined to a wheel chair in his latter life, Ford who was healthy and active purchased a wheel chair for himself and together they would race across the grounds in their wheel chairs.

Such is the intensity of these life long friends. In this era of virtual networks, each one of us is devoid of friendship like this. Keep you Friendship gates open so as to welcome your dear ones in to it.

Happy Friendship Day...

Epiphany

Days so far bear witness to the fact that you will always be left with something with you, after you were through the phases of life.Take any part of your life,the thoughts it left you with,the friends it gave you,awesome persons you met on your way,the things you gathered..everything you have now and then bears the witness!

                Each and every minute of my journey, I wonder how good life is to me...as soon as I come out of the daze and depression I would be in as the result of the consequences.

           The Solution is always with in "you".

Two point Strategy

Today is very special to me for two reasons. Firstly, this is the same day I have started blogging, a favourite pursuit of mine.Secondly this is the day I celebrated my 21st birthday with all my best buddies at the party and a pour in wishes from everywhere.I am very happy to see my friends with their heartful of warm wishes pouring out for me.

Tresuring an insurmountable amount of happiness in my heart.... 





My Birthday Gifts

Awesome!!!

These days I have been to places on academic works...
Eventhough I am new to this living outside the home in wierd hostels,with wierd mates,with wierd time tables to move on...I found all this absolutely "awesome"(the word I like the most and use it carefully).
Every day,every hour,every minute made me as strong as I would be...by getting me to find the strengths of life!
I think its the people over there who brought all this change.They are really awesome.Their behaviour,lifestyle,attitude...really amazing.Not that I completly like them in all respects...but I liked their attitude!The only thing which can change everything!!!

P.S:In middle of all these thoughts also I have manged to be me:(But I aspire to be one of them while holding my virtue:)

I love this pic!