Still Water.........

Whatever decisions I took considering everyone around me,are hurting me over and over again.I still don't know what I want.

What I want either eludes me or I have to undergo mental trauma with those I have.I couldn't decide on certain things.May be God is planning a special road for me.I want happiness.I don't want to be broken.I want to be flexible enough to accept whatever comes my way.I want myself to be, like "Still water".

Can you digest?

Maturity is the understanding you get out of your perception of people and situations around you.Its fine to have it well rounded, even as per the international standards.What if it  outgrows itself?What if the baby plant gets ready to criticize on the mother plant itself?Can you digest it?I am unable to do so.Suggest me if you can...