The Much Awaited Confession!

This goes as a address to no one.

Just because you don't find me express myself anywhere does not mean that I am in dearth of feelings.

Our mind is more or less like a perpetual river- it flows in full during rains, it dries up during summer, it may get frozen up during winter, it may reflect the beautiful hues during spring. But it do exist. Yes , it does.

For the each and every second of my life which has gone waste in searching for the right one, here I am, begging your pardon, please get me back my time. Present me with the same altruist passion for myself.

Sincerely

Eternal Free Spirit

In search of Myself

So, What should be my goodnight note!!!!?

Of late, I am just wondering, where am I going to land myself in Life?

There is this sea of thoughts waiting to surge upon me as soon as I restore myself to the calmest hours of the day- me and my mind and the alluring sleep.

So my landscape varies from me -being the most outstanding student in the class, secretly struggling in Maths, but manages to be in the cream of the class.

-from me being the calm and the reserved girl who has only few real friends(being learnt the biggest lesson on friendship in her younger days).

-from me being the survivor of the drastic and worst phase of my life(Intermediate).

-from me being the......

I think this is not going to be the summary of my life as of now, let me write it sometime later, when it is going to end :P

So, I am just concerned about whether I have to wish myself that the best days are yet to come or to be strong while amidst the storm, because I m not sure if this phase of my life ends.

It's just me,

Harika.

Thoughts..Ending or Beginning!!!???

2015...So this is how it ended.
The year which I thought will be the biggest challenge and the to toughest to live by - just passed away!

With broken dreams and a struggle to overcome, with friends who wanted me to get back and the hope - which evaded me so far.

So, I found my biggest hope in the words of someone who just wanted  to see me being myself and win over life  -not by the mere astrological predictions but by walking against the stars.

So, this wanna be writer,a blogger,avid reader,creative art pursuer and a passionate searcher for the inner meaning of life - here I am , with lots of hope, not on the people I have met,not on the people who belong to the past, not on the people who walked away slowly, not on the people who stayed and supported and not on the people who are still there - its only on , one and  only "ME" . I am not going to let you down dear! All set to face the world again.

So that moment when the world started celebrating the dawn of the new year at 12'o clock, all I m left with is just a blank mind - which does not want to wish anyone,which cannot think of at least one person who meant everything other than my parents,which just wanted to see the night sky endlessly in search of the iridescent cloud of stars and galaxies which holds my life in its entirety and eternity, just with my naked eyes as if they are the tools to find the meaning of life! "That Moment" I felt I m complete!

Yours Eternal Free Spirit
Harika

Flipped!!!

As I let my self through each and every day, I have this consciousness which always runs through like a perennial river, on each and every thing that matters and also some of the trivial things - an intuition or an instinct. This is exactly what I identified myself with when I watched this movie- called Flipped.

The excellent portrayal and narration of incidents in both the angles of the lead characters, showing the audience both the perceptions simultaneously and as usual the way the motions the explained are the few things I can think of.

But By and Large, the way the movie tried to show the evolution of the two children over the years, the formation of a thought process and nurturing that instincts they really feel are very catchy.

I am very thrilled at the way If a girl stands strong on what she believes and the boy who is basically coward gets clarified of his thoughts and emotions and takes a step forward to express the same, Flipped as it in the end!

P.S: Life is not full with all the bits and pieces we accumulate, its about the entire landscape which makes it complete :)

Feeling Thoughtful and pleasant,

Harika.

The Theory Of Everything

Every time I lose hope on Love and Existence of Life on Earth together,
the universe conspires me to see some Live Examples for Such.
'The Theory Of Everything'...the movie based on the book "Journey To Infinity:My Life with Stephen" by Jane Hawking.
Really such an awesome experience through time and life of great people living on the same planet.
"Love can do wonders" the standalone conclusion I got.

P,S:(Inspiring lines from the same)
"There should be no boundaries to human endeavor. We are all different. However bad life may seem, there is always something you can do, and succeed at. While there's life, there is hope. "

New Dimensions!

Dear All,
 
As we discover new dimensions to the universe we live in, an individual is always stumbled upon the
urgent requirement of discovering the new dimensions he has to have, in leading this enormously  complex yet, seemingly so simple Marathon called Life.
In my endless endeavor to improvise myself, in leading life more productively,
I hear, I seek ,I am always in search of Wisdom in various forms.

In one search seek, got these:
It makes you complete
Only If you can with held the sorrow that has build up inside without dropping a tear,
Only If you can hold back the enormous happiness ,
Only If you can laugh it off the intense pain without showing it in your eyes

Seems so easy but so intense to practice.

P.S: Hope I would make it.

Always Honest,
Harika.

Start all over Again!

Since the days I started to think and write my mind, I always use to reiterate a line to myself.That....It's never too late to start over again...

To start up new even though you are deviated a lot...

Found some similar but great verse in one of the movies I recently saw.

For what it's worth, its never too late.

To be whoever you want to be.

There is no time limit,start whenever you want.

You can change or stay the same.There are no rules for this thing.

We can make the best or worst of it. Hope you make the best of it.

Hope you see things that startle you.

Hope you feel things that you never felt before.

Hope you meet people with a different point of view.

Hope you live a life you are proud of.

If you find, you are not...

Hope you have the courage to start all over again.

P.S: Sharing the same lines from the movie.#encouraging.

My Hibernate Hangout!

I find people say they are back to blogging and they hope to continue this time and all that stuff.
I really don't see a need to say so.

Blogging may be your hobby. It may be your past time. It need not be a report to someone.
I am someone who fall in to this category who has been struggling with my own life and almost forgot that I have a blog.

I used to love blogging. My favorite past time and an evidence to my lovely pursuit of Writing.

I always wanted to write a lot. I wanted to express everything in words. From the irritated feeling you get when you are commuting in a busy thoroughfare to the divine feeling you get when you find love.

And I wanted to be Special, without getting lost in the runway of Life.

P.S: So, this is to all girls who  felt like me.Don't ever get lost.Find yourself and regain your radiance.

Absolutely Mine,
Harika.

Creative Clarity!

It was many days since I made a post.My favorite past time was long forgotten and left over.The only reason which held me back is the lack of clarity, as I am mired in a pool of ideas,thoughts and emotions.

Being an emotional person inherently,I always strive for betterment-to win over myself,my inabilities,my feelings. In that process I go too personal-not able to share anything with anyone on this earth.But my mom is the only exception.She is there with me at all thresholds of my life.She always tries to be a better mould for me.She is my everything.

"With Great Confusion comes Great Clarity."

In my Life's whirlwind of challenges & the need to evolve,knocking at my doorstep....
It's Me signing off,back to my endless endeavor for betterment.

2States!

Episode - Emotions in Life!!!

Emotions tickling, at the same time warning!

Feelings undulating, yet going numb!

Words spurring,but ceasing before they are out!

...

...

...

What Not!

 

My Life always has two sets for me:One sets me High and another Low.

Between these two states , I lay unable to contradict,unable to be submissive.

 

"Life Exciting, at the same time Challenging".